This week has been really awesome

Mike and I signed off for our separation today which may not sound like a good thing but I feel SO relieved. I feel like a 100 pound weight has lifted off me.
Court went fairly good Tuesday. I didnt have to say anything cause my lawyer did so that was good. Mike got a little stinky at the end but hes hurting so ok.
When I got home I celebrated by Christmas decorating :) It looks so nice and I love the way it makes things so much brighter and happier.
The day after I found out that my team of supporters had their meeting and it went well so now everyone is on the same page which really makes me happy cause then Im not telling this one one thing and then another has to pass things along. The grapevine thing sucked. I have much more peace knowing I can relax and everything is taken care of and so I can take care of me.

Yesterday could NOT have been worse but then got better

So I went to NAMI yesterday and it was pretty intense, have a good friend that was having a very hard time and I felt so bad for her. Then I had counseling, she did her job but she wasnt very nice to me. She brought up stuff I really didnt want brought up.
So I was tired after all that but I thought "ok Im just gonna go home and take a nap" but no. My ride was 2 HOURS late. For a company thats been providing rides for 20 years you'd think they would have no excuse for making people wait that long. So I ws waiting and this creepy guy was walking around which I usually ignore because it is a mental health facility and its to be expected but he suddenly comes standing right over me and hovering. Usually the people at the desk buffer that but they were busy and bla bla. So he hovers over me and asks if I text message like implying he wanted to on my phone but I was really freaking so I just said "yes I do " and put my head down and ignored him. He said "F..U" and walked away finally. So Im grumpy about my ride being so late then that happens on top of all the emotion I already had to deal with.
I got home and was just gonna lock myself in my room for the night but my mom called and asked if I wanted to go to the mall and a movie so I was like "Yeeeeessss pleeeeasse". So we went and it was a good distraction. We saw the new "A Christmas Carol" which was a bit creepier then I thought necessary but its 2009 so guess I cant expect any less. But it knocked me out of the sucky reality that was my day so that was good.
So ya yesterday is gone and today is today so I guess I'll just breath deep and hope for a better day.

Soooo relieved

I had my LAST appt with my lawyer today for the next 6 months. Now I feel like I can finally move on without thinking about,dreaming about,being angry at and missing Mike. I can finally get him out of my freakin head and I can move on. I am am ready to do the happy dance.

Plans for Tomorrow

So I got creative. Im tired of being bummed so I made a plan to get together with a friend of mine that is kinda going through the same thing and we are gonna have a party!
I ordered a "Happy UnAnniversary cake" hehe. I got streamers and balloons too lol. I know its a little overkill but hey life is sometimes like that. I am excited and I think tomorrow should be fun :).